JUST STAND

When you’ve got no place to run to, to whom do you turn

With whom can you trust your heart with to share your concern

At times I stand at a distance, on the outside looking in

Watching others live there lives, I don’t know where to begin

For deep inside there are walls, unsure who to trust

Slowly I let them down to live again, only because I must

If you don’t deal with pain, it will deal with you

While confronting feelings is not easy, it’s what we have to do

If we try to run away from them, they come beating down the door

Suffocating the life from you, of this I am sure

Honestly I’m quite tired of dealing with these emotions

But the waves keep rolling in, like a pattern in the ocean

In order to move forward, you have to lean into the waves

These emotions are quite powerful, so I have to be very brave

For in the quiet times when the noise has ceased

Is when they surface begging for relief

I’m thankful for the arms that hold me, a gentle soothe upon my back

If I don’t release them, I’ll have a panic attack

My heart will start to race, fight or flight takes over, I want to run and hide

But if I don’t express them, surely I will die

It’s okay to not be okay, simply stand where you are

And no that feelings will get easier to cope with, when others seem afar

Simplicity lies when they are no words to be spoken

There are no answers to provide when a heart is broken

Please don’t give a quick answer or compare me to a story of yours

For inside I’m broken, no other heart knows my sorrow or joys

Only God himself is the only one who could understand

I simply just acknowledge him, he replies “just stand”

For my storms may be different than yours, but every heart bleeds

Everyone deals with grief differently, everyone has different needs

Allowing someone to go through this process has to simply be

I don’t want to be cheered up, or distracted, I want to be me

Easier said than done I suppose, because human nature is to fix

Taking out a wrench or hammer, just can’t be in the mix

Living for today because that’s what I am told

By my heavenly father, trusting I’ll come out pure gold

For he is with me in the fire, surely I won’t be set ablaze

Coming out not smelling of smoke, acknowledging him in all my ways

For when I want run, he beckons me to stand

You dont have to have an answer, simply hold my hand