I know you didn’t want to end it this way
But deep down inside I thought you would be okay
Yet still you were offered the very same choice
In the end you silenced and succumbed to the voices
The choices leading up to were a culmination of many
Yes you made mistakes, yes there were plenty
You became your own judge and jury, determining your fate
You chose to die, you saw no other escape
It hurts me to know, you chose to be alone
Knowing you had so much support, a love from many was shown
You were loved by so many, but love couldn’t keep you here
For if love could have saved you, you would be near
Left trying to put together a puzzle, now there are many pieces gone
Part of the pieces understand you suffered for so long
While others remain sullen and sad, I pick them up and put them down
Part of my healing, because I refuse to give up and drown
Life will never be the same, for it’s not supposed to be this way
I continue to draw close to God, when I’ve got nothing left to say
I know you saw no way out, you simply had no hope
You fought a long and grueling battle, it all ended with dope
To say I hate that drug, wouldn’t never even surmise
I sat and watched how it stole the light from within your eyes
You lost the spark, slowly it crept in
Yet I know you didnt want to die, and the enemy still didn’t win
He surrounded with doubt, the record always played
He was right there whispering in your ear for you not to stay
Death has been defeated, it was defeated at the cross
And I know that I will see you again, even when I deal with loss
For he paid the price for us all, we are covered in his blood
I know that he will carry me, his love is enough
And every day he will give me strength, as my feet touch the ground
And he will listen and heal my heart, he is the hope I have found
The only one never changing, he is steady and sure
Like the footsteps in the sand, he
carries me on the shore
When there should be two sets of footprints, there will be only one you’ll see
He is my loving father, greatest comforter, he is carrying me
IN DEEP WATERS 
If earthy love could have kept them here, they would be here. They left this world with our loving arms wrapped around them, clinging onto theirs ankles until the very last second.
God said, “No”! He has other plans for me and my life.
It’s only been 30 days for me and my mind struggles to understand but I know God wastes nothing, our tears are saved in a bottle and our prayers are recorded in books. I pray God will use this broken vessel to shine more light on His awesomeness.
Nichole, thank you for your courage and transparency, continue to shine bright into the darkness. You are beautiful in every way…keep shining. I admire you and keep you at the top of my list when I pray. 🙏
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Thank you for your prayers and support. If ever there was a time to rely on one another and share our faith, gifts, talents and abilities it’s now. It gives me so much joy knowing I can express and verbalize the pain in a way that helps others, especially family💜love you all.
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