Just Listen

The long winding road of grief
Beats like hot summer on the soles of your feet

Very little shade to run to, to cool them
Only temporary moments of peace, pain surfaces again

Running this way and that, brain isn’t clear
Only moments of solace that sometimes appear

It takes almost half the day to climb out, man am I beat
Then it starts all over, like a record on repeat

Night time settles in, and off in distance
My eyes well up with tears thinking about your existence

This feels like a nightmare all over again
I can’t sugar coat this one, nor begin to pretend

I’ve come to the complete end of myself, not having a will of my own
Pleading and bargaining with God to make himself known

I pray for the serenity to accept what I can’t change
Like a lost child with no home, I feel estranged

I wrestle with God, its like a match I can’t win
We live in a dark,cold world that’s so broken by sin

Free will sucks when you are the recipient of others choices
Left with the pain, trying to suffocate the voices

So many emotions, I can count them one by one
Yet I feel like I haven’t even grieved yet, like it hasn’t begun

It’s hard to see when you are crowded in the valley
It’s dark and lonely, like a desolate city alley

Yet I still know with all that I am that God has a plan
I lean not on my own understanding and I grab hold of his hand

He walks beside me, can’t you see him there?
Surely he is the only reason I’m standing, for he truly cares

He weeps when I grieve, he catches every tear
He gives me courage to stand when l want to disappear

Make no mistake about it, I want to run away
So please don’t even ask me, how I am today

I’m doing the best I can in each moment, I’m trying you see
What you dont know what to say, please just let me be

There are no words that can be spoken
Just a heart that is grieving and is simply broken